Hi, you can call me "Tom".

2010-09-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

I'm going to keep my hopes high, stay positive and just try to score as much for my remaining papers. Nothing much I can do now, except to just look back and realise how much time I've wasted doing other things but study, or even homework and assignments for that matter. I can't say I don't regret what I've done, or what I've not done, but what the heck, I can't expect miracles to happen now. Now I understand when people say that I'm responsible for my own future.

2010-09-17T04:19:00.000+08:00

2010-09-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

Titans may need a new #10.

2010-09-06T03:13:00.004+08:00

2010-09-04T16:30:00.001+08:00

2010-09-03T01:03:00.000+08:00

2010-09-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

2010-08-29T15:31:00.000+08:00

I'm an addict for dramatics
I confused you for love

2010-08-28T20:57:00.002+08:00

2010-08-26T06:10:00.000+08:00

... I was weak with fear that something would go wrong

2010-08-25T05:08:00.001+08:00

Let's cause a scene like lovers do on silverscreens ... Let's make it, yeah we'll cause a scene

2010-08-23T00:32:00.003+08:00

One may think we're(I'm) alright
We(I) need pills to sleep at night
We(I) need lies to make it through the day
We're(I'm) not okay

But that's one thing I would never say to you.

2010-08-22T17:23:00.000+08:00

... you twist to fit the mould that I am in. But things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do. I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew that someday it'll lead me back to you.

2010-08-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

To lose 6kgs in 3 weeks. I'll do it.

2010-08-19T02:59:00.002+08:00

Alright, goodnight.

2010-08-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

... you know that I could use somebody, someone like you and all you know and how you speak

2010-08-14T00:49:00.003+08:00

@Cathpurrs

HAHAHA

2010-08-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

... and I don't mind if it's me you need to turn to, we'll get by. It's the heart that really matters in the end. Our lives are made in these small hours, these little wonders, these twists and turns of fate. Time falls away, but these small hours, these small hours still remain

2010-08-03T02:04:00.000+08:00

If you find yourself here, on my side of town, I pray that you'd come to my door ... and talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about, cus I don't remember anymore

2010-08-01T23:37:00.001+08:00

"... full of promise, full of hope, ignorant of reality."

2010-08-01T20:03:00.003+08:00

2010-07-25T20:01:00.003+08:00

2010-07-23T23:52:00.001+08:00

I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to make you sway, like I know I've done before. I will not do it anymore. I've always been a dreamer. I've had my head among the clouds. Well now that I'm coming down, won't you be my solid ground?

2010-07-22T20:09:00.002+08:00

"... cus you are beautiful inside, so lovely and I can't see why I'd do anything without you. When I'm not with you, I know that it's true; that I'd rather be anywhere but here without you."

Safetysuit - Anywhere But Here

2010-07-22T19:47:00.000+08:00

Love is(was) our resistance; they keep(still) us apart and they won't stop breaking us down

2010-07-18T03:15:00.001+08:00

... All the roads we have to walk are winding, and all the lights that light our way are blinding

2010-07-17T18:53:00.000+08:00

You got your rules and your religion, all designed to keep you safe ... but when the rules start getting broken you'll start questioning your faith

2010-07-14T23:22:00.001+08:00

I shall ignore the fucking want I have to punch you right smack in the face
I'm already angry enough, so don't fucking complicate things
or I really will come up to you one day and cripple your fuck face, motherfucker

2010-07-13T02:06:00.000+08:00

I believe in nothing, not the end and not the start
I believe in nothing, not the earth and not the stars
I believe in nothing, not the day and not the dark
I believe in nothing, but the beating of our hearts
I believe in nothing, a hundred suns until we part
I believe in nothing, not in sin but in God
I believe in nothing, not in peace and not in war
I believe in nothing, but the truth in who we are.

2010-07-05T01:21:00.001+08:00

"Tom had finally learnt ... there are no miracles. There is no such thing as fate. Nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now."

2010-06-28T02:27:00.003+08:00

2010-06-27T14:11:00.000+08:00

I want to slit your throat, and fuck the wound
Press my face in and feel the swoon

2010-06-21T03:17:00.002+08:00

But if I try to make sense of this mess I'm in, I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm falling, I'm falling

2010-06-19T03:16:00.001+08:00

Closed lips, she was never one to kiss and tell

Those trips in the summer never went so well

Young love is such dumb love

Call it what you want it was still enough

...

And we were just kids in love

The summer was full of mistakes we wouldn't learn from

The first kiss stole the breath from my lips

Why did the last one tear us apart?

(2008)

2010-06-18T02:20:00.000+08:00

I die, I die
I live, I live
This is the hairy men
Who brought the sun and caused it to shine
A step upward, another step upward!
A step upward, another... the Sun shines!

2010-06-17T04:24:00.001+08:00

Why's it always you and never me?

2010-06-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

There's no use in trying when the pieces don't fit anymore

2010-06-12T02:55:00.006+08:00

2010-06-09T03:18:00.003+08:00

2010-06-08T23:58:00.003+08:00

Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start

2010-06-06T15:16:00.003+08:00

Sevens (Y)

2010-06-04T15:23:00.002+08:00

Neutron Star Collision

2010-05-30T23:57:00.002+08:00

That 'party' last night was awfully crazy I wished we taped it (Y)

2010-05-19T21:54:00.001+08:00

Project "Abang Sapau 2" started just now.
Watch out, AUDI HAHAHA

2010-05-16T23:45:00.006+08:00

"Hopefully you're knocked out at home now. Anw, you weren't being dramatic la, I was just saying that. Watching you/adli/amir cry was horrible but especially so for you. I really love you so much and I'm so proud of you not just for rugby but for being Zircon captain and how you pay attention in accounts now but mostly because you're such a caring person which in the end matters the most. You're a smart boy syraf, and I'll push you through MI. I know getting all A's and B's might seem damn far away but it really isn't once you do it, once you see it you can keep doing it. Get the confidence early, this promos alright? This is so freaking long but wtv, I just wanted to say all this whil I'm still feeling it all. I think I'll bring panadol for you tmr. I forsee a headache ... Oh ya! No matter how much you feel like ponning sch, make sure you drag your ass there to get your medal!"

- Cathy

Cathpurrs, you're my bestfriend, and I love you (':

2010-05-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

1. Audi

2. Adli

3. Carebear

4. Sean

5. Bryan

6. Yunus

7. Hakim

8. Ram

These are my brothers whom I'll dearly miss after tmrw's game. Win or lose, I still love you guys cus we've been through so much shit together. I still remember how we all got started in rugby, how close we've all become. Seriously guys, I'll miss all of you. Let's just mothafucking win the Plates.

2010-05-11T21:52:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight
I hope that things'll work out alright

2010-05-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

I'll cross my heart and hope to die before I get the chance to lie to you, my dear, who I wish no harm. But I know, in the end, this will turn out wrong. Cus I've been known to fall in love, but sometimes love just is not enough. And my heart will stray before too long. So please, forgive me, for when I sing this song.

2010-04-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

I don't think I'm ready for anything.

2010-04-25T21:46:00.002+08:00

1 week to the semi-finals.
1 week to the biggest match of our lives (so far).
1 week Titans, just 1 fucking week.

Are you ready?

2010-04-19T15:13:00.002+08:00

Get mothafucking ready, JJ.

2010-04-15T20:17:00.001+08:00

So I pick the world up and I'mma drop it on your fuckin' head

Yeah, bitch, I'mma pick the world up and I'mma drop it on your fuckin' head

Yeah, and I can die now, rebirth motha'fucka

Hop up in my spaceship and leave earth motha'fucka

I'm gone, motha'fucka

I'm gone.

2010-04-08T23:04:00.001+08:00

I can't wait for the 17th.
I can't wait to wear the no. 12 Canterbury jersey.
I can't wait to huddle with my brothers on the pitch.
I can't wait to give the first kick-off.
I can't wait to give perfect passes to my team mates.
I can't wait to kick for points.
I can't wait to tackle.
I can't wait to celebrate at the end of the 17th.

I hope you guys can't wait too. The Touch girls beat SA. The Hockey girls beat SA. Let's make it a Millennia hat-trick alright guys?

2010-04-02T19:02:00.000+08:00

Raffles 44 - 0 Millennia

My resolution for our next game:

Better kicks, points, and a try.

2010-04-01T21:33:00.001+08:00

close your eyes, dry your tears
cus when nothing seems clear, you'll be safe here

when the light disappears
and when this world's insincere, you'll be safe here

when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you, you'll be safe here

save your eyes from your tears
when everything's unclear, you'll be safe here

from the sheer weight of your doubts and fears
your wounded heart, you'll be safe here

in my arms, through the long, cold night
sleep tight, you'll be safe here

and when the world understands
i'd believe, you'll be safe here

put your heart, in my hands
you'll be safe here

2010-03-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

I just can't get you off my mind, and why would I even try?

2010-03-21T05:20:00.000+08:00

The alarm went off like a noisy bitch, and so yeah, now I'm up and going for a run.

But before that, let me just say that I've been happy like fuck for the past few days. Why? Well, I shan't say why, but what I can say is that it feels damn good feeling like this. Warm and fuzzy, hahaha. Actually I don't even know whether I made any sense. But oh well, I'm happy, and that's that.

Ah, going for my run now. Semangat hxc abit ah. Hehehe

Till then mafakas.

2010-03-17T02:35:00.000+08:00

You make me happy. Like, smile to myself happy.

2010-03-08T00:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday bestfriend <3

2010-03-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

This is somehow getting really out of hand.

2010-03-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

Three important things for today.
1. Sports Day
2. A' Divs Fixtures
3. MI vs NP

OH MAN.

2010-03-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

My patience is wearing so fucking thin, but I still won't give up on any one of you because you guys are still my brothers.

2010-02-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

2010-02-22T01:40:00.000+08:00

And I, I'm on my way to believing.

2010-02-21T23:43:00.003+08:00

I've given alot of thought to the nights we used to have. The days have come and gone; our lives went by so fast. I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor, where I laid and told you but you swear you loved me more.

Do you care if I, dont know what to say? Will you sleep tonight? Or will you think of me? Will I shake this off, pretend it's all okay?

There's someone out there who feels just like me...there is.

Low Shoulder - Through The Trees

2010-02-08T19:47:00.000+08:00

I didn't know some people could actually look good while stoned out, eh Audi?
HAHAHAHA

Blink 182 - Down

2010-02-02T00:32:00.000+08:00

Everytime I eat something I'll vomit it out within minutes. This is not good, this is not good at all.

30 Seconds To Mars - From Yesterday

2010-02-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

Bloody indigestion.

John Legend - Ordinary People

2010-01-30T16:35:00.002+08:00

Responsibilities.

Skillet - Hero

2010-01-28T22:43:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow's Friday. Which means there's training. Time for more Henson-Williams partnership eh, Aaron? Hahaha.

2010-01-24T04:18:00.001+08:00

Friday's game...well, it was pretty good. Expectations were met, although we weren't at our best, yet.

Backs were more confident with each other, more comfortable and had the damn balls (i mean bravery) this time round. They knew what to do and our winger even scored after some nice commit passing. But we're still lacking communication and I think it's something we really need to work on. The forwards improved tremendously; their rucking, their crashing and them supporting the runners. I was just disappointed with my kicking, which was atrocious. Gah. And, someone stepped on my ass during a ruck and it still hurts haha.

And oh, we all need to start sorting out our anger issues. I'm doing my best to, and I hope you guys will. (But Brandon's 'fight scene' was still damn funny, especially when i tried to literally slap some sense into him.) But no, none of that should happen again, hopefully haha.

Now I actually can't wait for another match.

2010-01-19T23:18:00.002+08:00

Well I've been down to Georgia, I've seen the streets in the West

I've driven down the 90, hell I've seen America's best

I've been through the Rockies, I've seen Saskatoon

I've driven down the highway 1, just hopin' that I'd see you soon

Cause I'm comin' home, I'm comin' home

I've never been to Alaska, but I can tell you this,

I've been to Lincoln, Nebraska and hell you know it ain't worth shit

I've been through Nova Scotia, Sydney to Halifax

I'll never take any pictures cause I know I'll just be right back

Cause I'm comin' home, I'm comin' home

I've seen a palace in London, I've seen a castle in Wales

but I'd rather wake up beside you and breathe that ol' familiar smell

I never thought you could leave me, I figured I was the one

but I understand your sadness so I guess I should just hold my tongue

But I'm comin' home, I'm comin' home

I know that we're takin' chances, you told me life was a risk

but I just have one last question...

will it be my heart or will it be his?

I'm comin' home.

:'(

We Are The Ocean - Nothing Good Has Happened Yet

2010-01-14T22:23:00.002+08:00

I think I'm still getting myself adjusted to the fact that I've to (fucking) wake up at (fucking) five every (fucking) morning, then drag myself to (fucking) bukitbatok for eleven (fucking) hours of (fucking) school and get home, all (fucking) tired and uninspired, to complete the (fucking) homework because of (fucking) deadlines, and then (fucking) sleep in the wee hours of the next (fucking) morning.

This (fucking) cycle repeats itself everyday throughout the whole week. And guess what? Only one (fucking) week has passed.

Life's hard. And it's getting harder.

Muse - Undisclosed Desires

2010-01-12T10:37:00.000+08:00

I overslept. Which means I'm not in school. Which means I'm now at home, writing this post while the rest are in their classes listening to teachers preaching. I don't feel bad at all, because I'm pretty confident today's lessons were going to be like yesterday's, which, were torturous. So, now I'm enjoying this moment away from school, and it feels pretty darn good.

But hey, this won't be an everyday thing.

And, D and Jun are having their gig today at someplace where I'm still uncertain of haha. It's Jun's first. Kinda exciting I should say. Ah, now I'm going to take a litte nap.

Good day, and good bye.

Common - Go

2010-01-11T03:43:00.000+08:00

School is a few hours time and I can't seem to sleep. Fuck, I hope tomorrow is not a long day or I swear I can cry hahahaha!

Thrice - Silhouette

2010-01-09T02:42:00.001+08:00

My sister's in the hospital now, because of appendicitis(sp?). My cousin said it was something minor, but she's due for surgery tomorrow I think, and I'm quite worried about it. Gah, I hope she'll turn out fine. Mum's worried like fuck, and I think that'll make her condition worse.

I've never felt this worried, and it's kinda depressing and draining. And I haven't started worrying about school. Fuck.

Help me, please.

Zacky Vengeance - (Some funny shit)

2010-01-06T23:08:00.003+08:00

"Woke up in the morning today, what did i see?"

Panic At The Disco - New Perspective

2010-01-06T14:25:00.001+08:00

I've decided to stay. A' Levels, here I come. Haha, I'm being damn optimistic, but I think I can do it. Really! Ah, oh well, I'm going to continue with my assignments. (fucking Geography!)

Boxcar Racer - There Is

2010-01-04T01:10:00.001+08:00

I'm a Gooner.

City and Colour - Hello, I'm In Delaware

2010-01-03T21:54:00.002+08:00

Pre-season starts tomorrow.

Fuck, pre-season starts tomorrow.

But hey, I'm ready for it. That's cus this year, I want to win something. I really, really hope all the madness happening in the team gets resolved and everybody's as pumped up as I am.

C'mon titans.

There goes my life (in 10 days' time). damn.

The Bloody Beetroots - Warp 1.9

2010-01-02T23:04:00.001+08:00

I had a fucking awesome family day today. The games, the barbecue, the kiteflying, the fire-making, everything ah actually, (except the cleaning up). Haha, we should all do this again ah Zakir!

T.I. - Dead and Gone

2010-01-01T02:39:00.001+08:00

Well, I hope 2010 won't be as fucked up as the past year. Seriously.
(Not a really nice way to start the new year eh)

Between The Trees - Changed By You

2009-12-31T00:34:00.004+08:00

Please wait while I slowly untie my tongue tonight. I pray by some feeble attempt my words would tell you what my heart has to say. You've always been right beside me for so many days. How could I be without you now?

A7X - I Won't See You Tonight Part 1

2009-12-29T21:18:00.001+08:00

RIP James Owen Sullivan.

Soulja Boy - Crank That (Travis Barker Remix)

2009-12-28T15:59:00.001+08:00

I find it damn hilarious when they start the "Ohhhhhh!".
YAAAAAA!

Go:Audio - I'm With You (Don't Tell Me)

2009-12-27T06:27:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep cus of all the coughing and sneezing. Gah, I've never been this sick for a long time. It sucks really, not having the appetite to eat and not even having the energy to get up. My laptop's on my stomach now, well the warmth of it makes me feel better.

My cousin's getting engaged in a few hours time, and I'm psyched! Despite this horrible state I'm in, I'm pretty sure I'd enjoy today, especially with my cousins around. Haha, I don't know, I just feel realy excited when the whole family come together. Hahaha.

Anyhows, I'm gonna try to get up and go wash up.

Oh yeah, gd'mornin!

Augustana - Hey Now

2009-12-27T00:28:00.001+08:00

I've been feeling sick ever since I woke up just now.
Well my throat burns everytime I cough, and I can't stop sneezing.
I feel like shit.

Angels & Airwaves - Everything's Magic

2009-12-26T00:37:00.002+08:00

memories, memories, memories. fuck

Asher Roth - I Love College

2009-12-24T23:14:00.005+08:00

I had mixed feelings when I looked at the new class list yesterday. I feel bad now that I haven't been there for my previous class, despite being the Class Rep and all. I kinda miss those guys who'd play Taite(sp?) non stop, even during lessons (btw, what the fuck is wrong with you gambling addicts haha). I miss arguing/debating with Kim and Abigail during GP classes where we'd both try to outdo each other by coming up with better opinions and ideas about the topic surfaced. I miss the guys too, especially John and Chin Siang, who won't stop comparing their biceps hahaha. But most of all, Mr Andrew. He's been great, not just as a teacher, but as a friend too. Ah, sad much.

Well, now I'm in a new class, new atmosphere, new people to mingle around with. I'll make the best during my stay in MI. I hope we'll all be best buds till the end? 09B5 now eh.

But hey, it's not the class that matters now. The lectures, tutorials and classes do. It's make or break for me for the first two months next year. Somehow I don't want to screw up the Common Tests and stay in MI, but I don't know if I can handle the extreme pressures of the H1 exams and even PW should I stay. Whatever happens, I'm looking at Singapore/Ngee Ann Poly a backup. Sigh.

2009-12-23T23:01:00.001+08:00

I am fucking hungry.
I swear I heard my stomach growling a few seconds ago.
I'm now off to the kitchen to cook.
G'night.

Copeland - Brightest

2009-12-23T00:50:00.003+08:00

"I've got two hours after school before I go for training. & I don't want to eat alone."

2009-12-22T18:30:00.003+08:00

Dan Carter started off his All Blacks career in the no.12 jersey.

Nightmare of You - I'd Dodge A Bullet For You

2009-12-22T02:27:00.002+08:00

Hey sweetheart, don’t take it so hard. I’m sorry I was bringing you down. I didn’t mean it when I said, that I wish you were dead. Hey sweetheart, is that your new car? Why don't you drive it off of a cliff? Because I can't stand your life, since I am no longer in it. Hey sweetheart, how far is too far? Cause now I have some blood on my hands. It may have been a mistake, but I am only a man. And the pain is real. But so are the pills. I can talk to my therapist, pretend you don’t exist. The further you go, the colder my bones begin to grow. They’re cracking and creaking, creating a big scene in the vessel of my body.

2009-12-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

2009-12-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

when you can't save them all, how do you choose who lives?

2009-12-18T03:15:00.002+08:00

My current wants/needs :

1. Vans 106 Vulcanized

2. Quiksilver Schoolie/Vans Migration Backpack

3. LA/Angels New Era Cap

4. New studs for my Kaiser 5s

5. A Motivator to get me ready for school (see, i do think abt my future haha)

6. More time with my family, esp Mum

7. FUCKING MONEY

seriously.

2009-12-18T00:36:00.001+08:00

i'm kinda psyched. why, cus there's the England vs NZ replay now...but it just reminded me of tmr's fitness training at 9. i dont dread training, i just dont like waking up so early.

ah fuck it, i'm gna watch Carter vs Wilkinson.

goodnight, and goodbye folks.

2009-12-17T11:29:00.000+08:00

three days at D's house was fucking awesome. but going to training the next morning after all that fun, was tiring and damn right painful. (exaggeration) haha, anyways, my family's going to Msia today and i'm somehow not feeling that happy about it. i kinda miss my mum, hehehe. ah, what the hell. at least i dont have to deal with my brother for another three days.

ah, to those reading this (well actually for jun, cathy and amir), thomson tonight?

2009-12-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

erm no, maybe not.

2009-12-10T23:54:00.001+08:00

Quiksilver Schoolie.

Vans Migration.