i feel lost.

now's the time i really need you.
your voice, your comfort.
argh, i fucking regret pissing you off, seriously. i'm really sorry.

i've lost you.
i've lost my spot in the A divs.
i've lost focus in my studies.
my world's crashing hard, and fast.

please, at least look at me when we pass each other.
i miss you, your smile especially, so much.

the nights now are so much colder, so much lonely-er, so much quieter.
i just feel so alone, with all the warmth in my heart sucked out of me, leaving me all lifeless and worthless. all the love you gave me, all fading away as time pass. slowly, painfully. really, really painfully.
the notes you gave me, they didnt help as well. everytime i read them i start crying. i feel like shit. how could i have been so fucking stupid by not being there for you when you needed or wanted me. argh. fuck, asyraf. fuck.

WHY MUST I BE SO FUCKING STUPID. WHY. WHY. WHYYYYYYYY.