i'm all drained out. sorry if i appear emotion-less. i'm really tired.

i'm not whining, cus this is how i really feel right now.

everything's just not going right for me. i dare say, everything.

school's a bitch, like how it always is. i've got tons and tons of overdue assignments and i've got no mood to even start on them. in fact i dont care if i'm suspended from class, or get detentions everyday. i've got teachers bugging me all over. i've got tests almost everyweek. and i found out something about the students who were 'counselled to leave' (CTE) school last year. if we fail any one of our tests, and dont get a good report from our home/subject tutors, we're in fucking deep shit. we've got to leave the school. fuck. i failed my math test.

my friends, well. i cant say much. i havent been joining them for outings or anything for quite some time now. i dont know, its just this awkward feeling now being around them. sometimes i feel out of place. no, not left out, cus you guys have always asked me out and stuff. just out of place. maybe i'm just being my reserved self again. i dont know.

my mum, she's trying so hard to manage three kids. losing her job isnt helping her one bit. and i really feel guilty and sorry. sometimes i wish i could just quit school and work, to help support my family, or at least help my mum. urgh, school. fuck school.

the A divs, we've lost twice now. 3 more games to determine whether we qualify for the Plates. i've been sidelined again after the SA match, and it sucks knowing you cant do anything to help the team, esp in ytd's match against pj. we lost. we fucking lost. this cant go on.

i need a little dash of hope and faith.

or somebody, anybody, just shoot me, please.