Cinta itu buta, dan juga boleh membutakan.

Melukakan dan sukar untuk kita lupakan.

Aku cinta padamu hanyalah ungkapan;

luahan yang jarang bermakna bila diucapkan.

Mungkinkah khayalan akal.

Mainan minda atau lamaran puitis dengan hasrat yang indah.

Kau selalu di hati, tetapi tidakku dekati.

Ku tetap tidak rungsing, tidak mungkin rindu.

Kerana ku pusing lihat wajahmu di setiap penjuru;

senyuman di kaca, kisahmu kubaca.

Ah, dua dunia kita berbeza.

I've had this secret

And now it's time that you should know

I was wrong to string you along

But circulating the streets in the pulsing heat

I scoured your town, completely aroused

And making love to your memory

- Brandon Reilly

tonight i just don't give a damn

if the world is ending,

i'm throwing a partaaaayyyy

i dont know you, but i want you

all the more for that.

it's just this thing about not disappointing mum again.

ugh, fuck you exams, fuck you school.

my cousin showed me this ytd.

and he got all emotional.

"look at the bastard getting tackled.

i hope he gets another one and dies."

hahaha, arsenal fans. (:

the Manu vs ManCity match was the highlight of today,

with the whole family in my living room screaming our asses off.

it was, in zakir's point of view, FUCKING EPIC.

yeah, it was really really nice to have everyone in the house.

well, it had been long. maybe too long.

the past three years we've shared a lot of grief, heartaches and tears.

finally a decent raya eh cousins. haha.

and ugh, i cant get myself to study, which is bothering/worrying me.

ah, tmr la, tmr.

laugh.

laugh your ass off now.

the neighbours said she moved away,

funny how it rained all day.

before you.

i found something that made me feel...well, weird for a little while.

like how i'm telling cathy now, it's kinda like a rollercoaster feeling.

ah, there goes my emotional self again.

"will you come home & stop this pain tonight;
i miss you."

...guess what.

i'm listening to 'Tale as Old as Time'.

the Beauty & the Beast soundtrack.

you know what's scarier?

the song calms me down.

oh shut up, dont judge me.

haha, okay back to my accounts lecture notes!

goodbye,

you evil,

time-wasting,

addictive,

'i-wont-log-on-to-facebook-but-i-still-did'

cyber world.

the silence isn't so bad
till i look at my hands and feel sad
cus the spaces between my fingers
were right where yours fit perfectly

i'm gonna go home straight after school for the next two weeks, well except for the night study days uh. i needa mug in silence, with pure focus and concentration, without anymore distractions. wow i surprised myself when i came up with that sentence. anyways, yeah, i need to do well. BUT, i just realised i keep doing this, saying the same things to myself everyday, but nothing's changed. its like 2008 all over again. i'm still slacking, stoning, procrastinating, and all that. i'm now starting to get worried that i'm not even worried for the promos.

i've been talking to shuuy about our future (chey, chey!) in MI. we both are retainees, okay fine, counselled to exit (CTE) students and our asses are on the chopping block if we screw the promos up. what's weird is that we both have the same problems apparently, like the slacking. but, she's already starting hxc revision and she's kinda a little (annoying, naggy) motivating factor for me, but the nagging ah. wha sial ah, bway tahan. hahaha, okay bff i'm sorry, you pig. hahaaaaaaaaaaa (:


ah, i read cathy's blog just now, which prompted me to write this post about my current study-situation. by the way cathy, yes, goodluck for the promos too. like sincerely, hahaha. well i cant bear to leave MI just as yet.


well, i wont. hopefully.
aaaaaaah, now i'm going off, to drown myself in Nightmare of You and Owl City.
goooooooooooooooooodnight.


and oh, happy birthday fatin. (:

my best friends, for the next few months and years to come.
gah, i miss rugby.

take this sinking boat, and point it home.

http://kayelmen.blogspot.com/

the blog mentioned up there has the greatest entry in the world.
(the one on 1st september, 2009, that is.)

haha jacklyn i love you laaaaaaa!

btw, im at the O hub with amir, while the rest are in kelas bahasa melayu.
fuck this shit.
well, i dont need education to be rich and famous. just give me a skateboard, and catwoman.

till then,
bye suckas.